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Everyone responds  and handles  grief in different  ways. There are 
recommended ways to deal with grieving, but these are just guidelines.

No matter how strong one is, the grief can hurt deeply. It can not be drowned
in the bottle, lost in celebration or in the company of other loved  ones. When
the departed has been so much a part of one’s life, the pain goes much deeper.
Two years after the death of my husband, I still feel moments of intense grief
pain and sorrow. Tears still flow down my cheeks now and then, when I think of
memories of the life we shared  together. These are cherished moments. I   
know that I will never hear his voice again, nor feel  his embrace. I listen 
to our favourite  music  alone. Sometimes  I hear him humming to the tune.

How long can this go on?  People will say move on. Each day is a step to moving
on.  Some days are slower than others.   I follow all the steps to keep my sanity.
Keep a routine, exercise, get out of the house , meet with friends, stay active and
healthy,  keep up with your hobbies, etc., etc.

Coming home to silence does not bother me anymore.  There is no  Eric  to welcome
me home, to ask how things went.  If there is a  problem around the house , I take
care of it. There is no one to consult. I am now used to eating my meals alone.
I got very sick last November, yes, I missed Eric terribly. The little things he 
did for me when  I get sick made me feel worst. He sure took good care of me. 

I am a night owl. Sometimes, I dread the nightfall. Evenings can be awfully long.
I know I now walk alone. It’s a mighty long and lonely walk

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